500 days of Brian

November 29, 2010

Today i didn’t go to class once again, it’s becoming a habit and it’s not good! I need to start attending my oceanography class again. I don’t see that it’s a bad thing if i don’t go cause i do have a good grade in that class but still. I can’t make it a habit of mine. Its COLLEGE not high school. Anyways, i left gdubs around 12 and arrived at long beeezy at 1230 and went to my friends pad and bleached my hair well not all of it. The process is extremely long. Then colored it after that whole process. I like it alot but it just needs to be cut and from there ill see how i really want it to look. Maybe i want the color to be a little lighter more blonde but not really. The brown in it isn’t really to my liking. The first day of winter pac camp was today! It was soo much fun and i am a WINTER PAC CAMP LEADER!!! with rona <3 I was so happy when i found out my co-leader was rona! I knew we were gonna have a lot of fun (: I love my group of kids. “i wanna be the very best…gotta catch em all!” I really loved gino and john’s piece and i loved it more cause the song they choreographed to was by trey songz. I LOVE TREY SONGZ! It was a sexy piece. I’m super excited for day 2 of pac camp. Also, mainly because me, cj, and reyrey are teaching our piece. woooohoo! i am still amazed that it was chosen. I’m very thankful though. Well time to hit the sheets. Goodnight!

Tonight was really fun performing at KM’s 2inspire showcase. It was nice to be around so many talented dancers in the dance community. Also, to be all gathered to dance and inspire young kids out there. Being there just made me way more grateful to be part of PAC Modern. I love my family! I can’t explain the feeling i received from just being around all those dancers. To be on such an amazing team with the strong bond we all have makes it incredibly more worthwhile. Seeing all those great teams made me realize how close competition season is and it got me excited like crazy. I can’t wait to compete with modern. I know it will be such an epic ride!

P.S. did i mention that there were soo many cute dancers!!! omg i couldn’t control myself i was going cray cray as usual! just thought i would add and share that (:

P.S. it was really good to see some friends/fellow dancers as well! (don, brandon, jaime, elaine, and vutha) not to mention my old coach and his gf.

kay. goodnight.

Happy birthday to my cousin alec. I am currently posted at my aunt’s house for my little cousin’s birthday. He is now 12 years old. Wow i feel utterly old being just 19 but i like it (: I like the holiday season because there are so many family gatherings. I love the feel of just being surrounded by family, titas, titos, lolos, lolas, and cousins. Seeing everyone happy and just laughing and having a good time brings a smile to my face. Haha sounds cheesy but its true.

The internet here won’t connect to my mac for some particularly odd reason so i am using my cousins laptop. but as soon as i can connect with my mac ill be on ichat. Lets hope it can connect. At the meantime i am completely bored. So someone talk to me. text me or call anything.

Left my house at 12am and picked up my cousin then headed off to glendale galleria/americana. First hit up metropark hella packed but i got the obey leather jacket with a hood i wanted and everything was 40% off! Then bought myself an ipod classic (: and bounced to pasadena and went to american apparel everything 20% off so i bought a back pack. I’m really happy with everything i bought today. Good black friday shopping and good thanksgiving holiday. I’m very thankful!

I am sitting in my living room and i just heated a nice hot plate of food. Yes i am eating yet again (: as i wait for time to pass by really slowly. I just love food and eating, but i need to work out all this fat before sunday for my team’s performance. My goal for black friday shopping is go to the mall at 2am and wait in line at the apple store i am buying myself an ipod. It has been way too long that i have been without an ipod, my life is not complete without music. Then off to forever 21 and urban outfitters and see what i shall stumble upon in all its gloryness. Also, i might be driving up to camarillo outlet and see what they have in store for this black friday. I forgot to mention i will be with my cousin Patrick. haha. Ill update more on this day later. 

For the meantime, someone please keep me company. webcam with me, text me, call me, aim me, whatever it is. Lets talk and be friends. I’m the only one in my house that’s still awake.

GOBBLE GOBBLE!! Happy Turkey Day to everyone. 

Time to dig in and stuff our faces with some extremely delicious food (: the best part about thanksgiving. But most importantly to gather together as a family and around the people you love and be thankful for everything in your life. 

I hope everyone has a wonderful and safe thanksgiving with their families. Can’t wait for Black friday (: shopping time. haha.

I’m thankful for all the people that surround my life, my family, my 2nd family my team PAC Modern i love you guys, my friends who will always be there for me, God and all that he has done for me and given me. I’m thankful to be alive and living a good life.

and i’m thankful for my followers hahaha lame but yeah.

@jeffisbeast is sooo coool that I’m so jealous of him right now -_- Ugh thanks. Okay, see ya!

Hahahaha. I’m lonely jk. But i am utterly bored right now and there is nothing to do. Someone hit me up and let’s talk! More importantly let’s be friends. I like making new friends (: i really friendly and funny. You’ll like talking to me. You will feel like we’ve been friends for forever. Aim me, ask box me, text me (i prefer texting) but that depends on who you are but we will seee. lol. so yeah gooo! i want to talk to someone. 

i am lame (: for doing this.

I’ve been contemplating on this for quite some time now and i still havent come to a conclusion. I really want to do something new and different with my hair. I find it utterly boring and plain. haha black and a fohawk. I will never get sick of my fohawk but i want do something new with it. I’m not sure what color is should decide on. One important note to keep in mind is that yes i am aware and have the knowledge that their are some people who already at this very moment have a fohawk and half of it is colored. I am in no way “jocking” , coping absolutely anyone. Inspired is a more appropriate word to use but i am not coping anyone. Just so we are clear on that.

Well…

give me your thoughts, comments, color suggestions, and anything else related to it.

leave it in my ask box. thanks!

P.S. and i know poreotics have members who have a fohawk that’s colored and just because they are alumni of pac modern and i am on pac modern has no relation to why i want to do this. kay just makin sure. because i know people on tumblr and the assumptions they make. haha

I just had the scariest dream ever. I was taking a nap and i started dreaming or nightmare i guess but you can’t tell at first. It was night time and i parked in a place that’s like a mall plaza type of thing. I was walking around naked well i had a blanket wrapped around me and everyone who saw me was shocked and surprised. It was pretty weird but kind of funny at the same time. Then i came across this person who was very scary in all his presence. He said something about getting shanked or death. I’m not quite sure. So i keep walking into restaurants and trying to find a place to sit but everywhere was crowded. Everytime i walked pass people they were laughing like crazy. So i decided to just walk back to my car and as i was walking back i encountered the scary person again and he mentioned something like death will come to you. I kept walking faster and there was a group of skaters and they looked evil and sinister. My plan was just to walk right through them quickly to avoid any confrontation. But to my surprise one of them had a knife/shank and i stopped my with life in grasped. Scared for my life i started stepping back and pleading not to take action with the knife. Then i woke up, i was really worried and scared.

Sitting on my bed trying to accomplish some homework that is due online tomorrow at midnight. Meanwhile, i am sick and i need to blow my nose every 2 mins and i’m also coughing. I feel alittle light headed and weak and i want to lay down and sleep but that is what i spent the entire day doing. I really wanted to go and watch Harry Potter 7 tonight at midnight with my friend but it was a fail. My friend promised me too. Oh well i guess.. I’m bored at the same time and no one is talking to me as no texts, phone calls, webcam sessions, nothing etc. So either hit me up in those options or give me your number and we can start texting. It would be so much better if i was in a relationship i would love to just have it be me and that significant other together doing homework or anything else. Sometimes all you really need is that one person right? 

well… 

back to homework .__.

hahahahahah (: you know you do!

NOT feeling good at all since yesterday. I hate being sick. I keep coughing and my nosy is so runny it’s going to have it’s own race. My throat is starting up too. I need to rest tomorrow and do some homework so it’s out of the way. I wish someone could make me feel better..

Music keeps me sane. I love it. It lets me just relax and soak in the moment regardless of what is occuring. It could be absolutely nothing happening but i’ll still enjoy that moment cause of the music playing. Most importantly it keeps my mind off of things for the most part. 

Talk to me (: ! im bored just jammin to my music.

Ask anything and everything you want to. I might just answer all of them. 

goodnight! (:

AHHHH!! the wonderful mini vacation called the weekend is over yet again. The past week was amazing i only went to one day of class. GOOD ASS BIRTHDAY WEEK FOR ME!!! (: Now back to reality and back to school and putting all my focus on that. I need to start my oceanography powerpoint project and gather all the information i need. Its due on Dec 6 i believe. My goal is to have it perfect and turned in before that date. I’m ready for this week of practice with modern. I’m ready to learn and work out, time to lose weight and get back in shape. Back on my salad diet. SIX PACK MODERN!! haha. Lets hope for a good weeek! 

Today i went to maxt out with some of modern because we were told that we were being honored for an award. It was really fun to watch all the junior teams and major crews perform especially the projects. Everyone killed it and twerked that shit out!! hahaha. Watching today made me really excited and looking forward to competition season with Pac Modern. It made me realize how truly lucky i am to be on such an amazing team with such amazing people that i love and who are basically my family. I am grateful forever for being given the chance to be part of such a legacy and history. I love PAC MODERN <3 Good job to everyone who performed and won. Good day today.

Umm.. lately this question stumbled upon my brain. It was really surprising to me that you actually decided after how many months to reply to my text. We have stopped all forms of communication for 3 months or so. Things didn’t exactly end the right way so. I saw it coming that i would call you when i’m drunk but i didn’t expect to say the things i did. Even though i didn’t deserve what you did to me. So i wanted to apologize and i decided to send it through text not knowing whether or not i would get a reply, i figured you would still receive it but not reply. When you did reply it came as a shock and the conversation kinda went on for a little then stopped like how i knew it would. I’m just confused as to why we can’t be friends now. I think were both or at least i am past what happened between us and how you decided to act towards the end. I’m over it and ready to have a friendship with you. It doesn’t seem like you want to or care to have one with me so i don’t know. Just a thought that’s been on my mind in the past few days.

Lately i’ve started to notice that every person that i use to talk to or date or use to like is now either taken, or talking/dating someone. Meanwhile, i’m here still single and alone. HA. it’s actually pretty sad when you really look at it. Is this karma or something? But i know i didn’t do anything to deserve this karma. 

Well my birthday is in 3 and a half hours and i’m not all that excited. I don’t know it’s just not how i expected my birthday to be. Another year alone, i mean i have people in my life that i love which is basically my team pac modern but i mean that significant other. I know some people say it’s not all that important but it kinda is to me. That’s my wish for my birthday and i actually thought it was about to come true this year but i was wrong again. There’s really nothing to look forward to this year for my birthday i’m just another year older and nothing new. I don’t know anymore there’s just so many thoughts and emotions going through my head at this point. But i’ll try to enjoy my birthday and whatever there is of it. The way i’m feeling right now is really hard for me to explain. I can’t tell if it involves hurt, sadness, loneliness, happiness etc. I just hope that things change by the end of this week or the end of this month. Let that someone who will make me happy find me and just everything in my life to be better…