Lately my mind has been M.I.A.. I’ve been a bit out of it. I’m not sure exactly how to explain it. I just don’t feel in the mood for anything at all. All I seem to want is to keep to myself for some time.. alone time I guess. I can’t really diagnose what is happening with me. The entire month of January I was pretty happy and motivated to do anything. I was excited and looking forward to new and great things to come. Now that it’s over and gone I feel as though I don’t know what to look forward to or that there’s nothing fun in the future.
I feel lost and confused with my life right now. Decisions that I should finalize are still murky and unknown. I keep changing my mind about what college I plan to transfer to I guess it’s normal but I feel as though time is running out and I need to know for sure where I want to go. I hate not having things planned out especially with my education. Besides my education plan being a total complete mess, I feel invisible in a way. Sounds stupid I know but I just feel as if no one sees me or notices me. I don’t know where I’m going with this.
I tend to find myself thinking a lot.. Im just sitting there with my mind roaming around and my thoughts exploring. My thoughts consist of all sorts of stuff, such as sad thoughts, happy moments, memories of people in my life (my friends and people I no longer talk to) then at times my imagination kicks in and I fantasize about stuff that would never happen or that I wish could happen. Ha..
Time to put this post to a close.. Winter break has been great but it’s just a tad bit too long. I want to go back to school already.
